i made a new xanga.....its practically the same as this one i just got sick of my fucking xanga name so i made a new one which is........ http://www.xanga.com/private/home.aspx?user=Xwho_killed_marilynX

We sit in this cold room and stare at each other.i look into your eyes and all I see is pain and regret.if only we could turn back the hands of time and go back to that place where we were so in love.its all a fucking blur I cant seem to remember when it all just fell apart.i know I’ve done you wrong and I wish I could take it all back.not one minute in my short sweet life did I ever want to cause you pain.i need to get out of here, this room is stained with memories and its smothering me.i feel like breaking down……..but what would you think of me then?the question lingers in my mind………do you still love me? I cant seem to bring myself to ask you because I already know the answer but to hear it actually come out of ur mouth would just kill me.you light a cigarette and give me that all to familiar fake smile that haunts me.this happy home of ours has turn into my worst nightmare.i don’t feel that same comfort lying in your arms.you’re so distant that I can barely see you.i never thought that after all these years the only thing id have left was shame.i’m waiting for you to just get up and walk out that door but instead you just sit there and leave me to suffer.am I the only one longing for our love to come rushing back. Do you not wish that this could of lasted longer? Did I give you any happiness whatsoever? Did we not have any good times? Why are you so god damn quite!?have you nothing to say? Or are you just afraid of hurting me with ur honesty. Why cant I let go like you seem to have done. Was this all a lie from the beginning. Was I a fool to think you felt what I felt?were all those “I love yous” and kisses fake? I stayed alive for you and this is what I lived for?this misery is slowly consuming me. I need you to save me before theres nothing left. I just want you to pull me in your arms and whisper that everythings going to be ok. I know that’s just a fantasy of mine. I’ll continue pretending im ok and that theres nothing wrong as long as you do. Ill sit here by your side till you get up and walk away……..

YAY!!!!i finally got my pics to work on this stupid fucking xanga!!!!!yeah so i took some pics and then a friend redid them......they look way hotter now......oh and i got my playlist to work...................

So yea really happy get a week off of school cause the stupid cunts are goin on a class trip and since i fucking hate them im not going with them.then after that one more week of school and im done thank fucking god......

Answer these questions with lyrics from your favorite band………

The distillers:

1.            Are you male or female?:
We were young girls
In a small fucked up world

2.            Describe yourself:
When i was a teen girl i walked real awkward
Like a dog with three legs
I had fought my wars
I was a misshape mistake misfit
Untamed mishap with a junkie heart

3. How do some people feel about you?:
If i was you id fucking hate me too

4. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:
I came so hard
I'd do it and do it again
Shoot your gun
Baby I come undone

5. How do you feel about yourself?:
 I cant be this now, Its not me anymore
I really tried Ive tried, Attempted suicide
Fucking convulsing and, Constantly denied

6. If you could say one thing to your enemy, what would it be?:
I am the bullet and you're the bullseye
When I hit there's nothing left

8. What would you say to your best friend?:
 I know what they're sayin about you
night and day is like a haunted replay.
I know it girl i'll pray for you
just remember it's not stronger than you..

9. How do you love?:
For what you do to me
Baby there’s no measure
I've taken everything
Now I want to give it
I left the lights on so you stumble in devotion

10. If you could say something to the person you like, what would it be?:
When I love you baby
I mean it more than
just the whole world

11. What do you think of drugs and alcohol?:
 Going back in style
Going back a mile
Dirty heroin, take it back a step
This is my arm, this is my heart
This is my arm, this is the lie
This is the lie, this is the lie
that you promised to me
Yeah I'm desperate

12. The only place you never want to be:
 Suicide Cincinnati

13. How do you feel about your mother?:
My mom kicked out my dad for battery
Found a way, found a way,
she found a way out of spiritual penury
Working single mother in an urban struggle
Blames herself now cause I grew up troubled

14. Where are you?:
 In a city
that swells with so much hate

15. Words to live by:
 Heres the chance to express your liberty No-one but you can know what stepping down can mean

16. Any last words?:
And when you're all alone, don't forget me
And when I'm all alone I won't forget you
And when you're all alone don't forget me
Cause I'm on the wrong side of the tracks
But I did not know until you turned your back
I'm livin' the blackest years, of my life

Currently Playing Mommy's Little Monster By Social Distortion moral threat see related

IM BORED!!!!!!!ha yea anyways ive come to the conclusion that school sux major rotting monkey balls!!!!!!!!!Ill write more when i get home k.later bitches.....well fuck me my rancid layout was so fucking hot but now one of the pics is like forbidden shit and wont show......GOD DAMNIT.....guess im gonna have to go change it..........TEAR

Social distortion fucking rox!!!!!!

You beat us up when we're alone
Come back later and then you're gone
Now you're tucked away in your bed
And I've got stitches in my head

cause you didn't like my looks
cause I'm not in the fashion books
admit it, you had some fun,
just remember, I'm not the only one
You made a show for all your friends
But they're not gonna stick around to the end
Then you're gonna think, "Was it really worth it?"
Then your head is rolling in all that shit

Moral Threat

You are so plastic you could be a Barbie Doll.
You walk you talk just like them all.
And, Oh how I love those pretty little curls,
With shoes and skirts, who's the better girl?

Anti-Fashion take them off
Anti-Fashion
And where did you get those $100 pants?
You know I'd love to rip them up, to shreds
A shiny red sports car takes you to the mall,
You shop with the elite and compare them all

I’ll put a knife right in you

I’m warning you!

Currently Playing The Misfits By The Misfits horror business see related

K well i cant see these pics TEAR......but shan says they work on her comp so maybe u can see them........i dunno whatever their ugly anyways but oh well if u dont like them well u can lick my twat...........shes gonna put them on her site aswell cause she loves me so..........so if u wanna check them there be my fucking guest her xanga is xbleedbeautyxinyourxheartachex